"I'm not gonna lose any sleep because I damn sure don't get sleep as it is!"

first, i found it so hard to even focus on what Brenda was saying when she would talk because she had this little pimple forming on her right cheek and it just kept drawing my attention. you know that Tide to Go commercial where the stain is talking... it was like that. only her little pimple was talking... but pimple or not i could watch her smile all day. i'm infatuated with her. she would definitely control my way of thinking too if i were there with her... just like she controls every one else out there.

i loved this episode! i loved everything about it! my two favorites in this game are Na Onka & Jane. my least favorite is Marty. i loved that he tried to burn them and it backfired! i loved the satisfaction on their face when Marty got the boot.

and i agree with them! everything about the man annoys me too! he does need a trip to the woodshed. i wouldn't let my children nowhere near him (i even blogged about it a couple weeks ago) and the way he walks, the way he talks, and his hair bugs the shit outta me!

Now i know a lot of people aren't fans of Na Onka and think she's playing a horrible game. I think Na Onka is in the best position to win this game. Na Onka is a total bitch but make no mistake about it... Na Onka formed the alliance between Sash & Brenda. Na Onka wanted Shannon gone. Na Onka kissed Alina's ass right before she slit her throat. Na Onka is the girl who everyone wants to go to the end with. The difference in Na Onka and everyone else playing this game is that Na Onka isn't a closet bitch. What you see is what you get with her. she's a HUGE physical threat. she's a warrior in challenges. so noone can say she didn't do well. noone can say she laid low. noone can say she rode coattails. If she gets to the end with the likes of golden boy chase & the all mighty Sash... that'll mean Chase turned on Jane, Holly, Kelly... . Sash turned on Brenda. Sash turned on Marty... think about it. She doesn't really have as strong of a relationship with others as they do with themselves... So she's not technically gonna be burning any bridges by voting anyone out because they already expect her to be shady and untrustworthy... don't underestimate her. The jury awarded someone like Natalie the million dollars over Russell and someone like Sandra the million dollars over Parvati.... not because they deserved it. if you honestly felt they deserved it don't even bother speaking to me about Survivor because you clearly don't know shit about the show.. they were awarded the money because of a scorned jury. Do you think a jury is gonna be more pissed by someone they knew was shady.. or by someone they trusted whole heartily? now don't get me wrong.. i'm not saying being loud and over the top is a strategy for her. i think its her personality it just kind of fell into place as a perfect strategy. ..

speaking of Chase.. he didn't choose the girls because he wanted to show allegiance to them. he chose the girls because the guys had uncle dan. you got someone like Sash who is skinny as a rail and has a chest like E.T. that you can count the bones in his ribcage. you got Dan who can't even walk. and you got Marty who is so delusional he can't even breathe without stopping to over analyze if he's gonna do it through his mouth or his nose. Marty is a hot mess. ... then you got Brenda, who found the medallion of power and has been pretty good at challenges. you got Na Onka, who like i said is a freakin warrior. no doubt in my mind she can take anyone there in an arm wrestling contest.. especially Fabio. & Holly.. i don't know what Holly eats for breakfast but to be over 40 and look as young as she does and be in the shape she is is pretty darn good.. Chase wasn't being strategic. Chase wanted to win.

Holly. now like i said, the girl must put miracle grow in her wheaties! she's like an amazon. i've said it from the beginning and i'll continue to say it, i wouldn't have let her get past the first tribal council. (glad she did or we would have missed her crazy ass in episode 2..) I expected Holly to be this quiet girl that you never know is there.. kinda like an old lady version of Benry... we see her break down and want to quit. we see her completely flop on her tribe. she's one of the last two women standing in the first merge challenge. she won individual immunity at the double tribal council. she lets jane & na onka STAND ON HER BACK in last nights reward challenge. she calls out Na Onka in front of the whole camp. and noone thinks "wow, she's a threat. look at her stirring some crap up here with Na & Alina." no. noone looks at her like that because she smiles and says "you remind me of my son. you remind me of my daughter. come on over to my house when this is all over and i'll fix you a pot roast in 30 seconds while my husband reads the paper at the kitchen table with his perfect suit and his perfect cuff links and i pour him a nice cup of coffee while my golden retriever comes wagging his tail into the kitchen and my teeth have little sparkly dings to them every time i smile. After dinner we can hop in my Chevy Tahoe and we can go feed the homeless." SHE JUST SEEMS SO FRICKEN PERFECT! everything about her! its like i want to be a part of her family. i want her to be my mother. she comforts alina on their reward. she comforts purple kelly after their challenge loss. she has heart to hearts with chase and jane. Can you imagine a life with Holly as your mother, Chase as your older brother and Jane as your grandma.... and of course Brenda as the girl next door? perfect life.

The more i see of Sash. the more i start to think about Shannon.... but anyway, i just wanna make him eat. he looks sick. he looks like he needs an iv and is on the verge of being bed ridden and forced to eat from a tube. he's so skinny. and his chest is so puffed out and you can literally count the bones in it. kinda like Brenda's talking pimple.. i can't focus on what he's saying because just looking at him makes me hungry. i wanna eat a sandwich.. 2 sandwiches. one for me and one for him. He's a pretty good strategist tho, not as great as Brenda, but pretty good. i don't see him winning this game tho. even if he makes it to the end (i suspect they'll turn on him tho.. like Brenda said she's controlling the game. He's her competition and he lied to the Marty alliance.. so he may go pretty soon) i can't see him winning. like i touched on during Na Onka's portion.. he's burning bridges and making too many promises he can't keep.
Fabio and that one guy.. .whats his name.. oh yeah, Benry... sorry i keep forgetting he's there... were talking about playing dumb. see, that leads me to believe Fabio is gonna do well in this game (i've always thought he would tho.. this just makes me think it even more) around this time each season the finalist start getting some interesting edits.. however i think thats just CBS trying to make him look like a good strategist. he's not a good strategist. he's just a likable guy. he doesn't have anything strategic about him. if he did he wouldn't have voted with Shannon. He wouldn't have voted with Marty.. he's not strategic. he's just likable. So when it comes time to vote someone off its "well here's fabio.. he's not the strongest of the group so we could still beat him. plus he's funny. in an environment like this a comedic relief is good.. we'll keep him" and like Na Onka.. his personality is kinda just falling into place for him in this game. he doesn't really need to do anything. he gets by just by being who he is. but i don't think its an act, AT ALL.

OH! and we got to see more of Purple Kelly this episode! what have we learned about her this season:

1.)she didn't get to milk her own milk.
2.)she's hungry
3.)she doesn't know which end of the marker you write with
4.)she's not the brightest color of purple in the world..